Lacuna

Ever since I was a child, there are moments when I feel haunted. Not in the scary movie sort of way, but definitely in the ghosts or spirits sort of way. The moments show up seemingly out of the blue, and the feeling is fleeting. It exists the way that some stars do in the night sky, by disappearing when you look directly at them. For the stars to stay present, a softer gaze is required; for the feeling, a softer stance. These liminal experiences create a kind of longing in me, like if I just knew how, I could connect. Sometimes it’s the land I want to connect to, sometimes it’s my ancestors, and sometimes it’s the underlying wholeness that other people call god or goddess.

In truth, these are all aspects of the same thing, the connection is already so deep that our very bones are shaped by it, and the longing is a call to remember. I’ve begun to make photographs when these moments find me with a camera in my hand. This series began in 2023 and is ongoing. Each image stands alone, and together they form a body of work that is ultimately about being met.